13 Days to College Farewell - A Survival Guide for Emotional Rollercoasters

 Good Morning Diya. You have a total of 13 days before college ends. In these 13 days, you will take that class photo, attend a farewell, probably finish those 2 seminars, write your internals, hopefully, present a paper and not feel any of those emotions you hope to purge. And yet, one day, a very random one at that, all of it will come crashing into you like some trainwreck and you will not know what to do with it. This is a list of things you could do to keep yourself... presentable? I suppose? for when that happens. (in no particular order whatsoever)

1. Accept your fate: let the sadness fall upon you like thunderstorms and mostly in a few hours as you nostalgically reminisce your 2 years here, along with the absolute heart-smothering memories, you will come across some you are glad to leave behind. Slowly but surely, the melancholy will turn into a sigh of relief.

2. Blame the stars: because they were responsible. It's always the stars. Nobody should gaslight you otherwise. You are here, at the threshold of a crisis simply because mercury decided to be in retrograde or something. 

3. Study: so much that you have no time in the day to think of how your life is going to take a turn (for better or for worse? I don't know?) and you have to make decisions amidst unemployment because I'm 27 (no I am 22) years old, I've no money and no prospects. I'm already a burden to my parents. And I'm frightened. So don't judge me, (readers). Don't you dare judge me!

4. Print the Memories: and stick them up your wall. yes that one - the one you have been procrastinating for 3 years now. do it

5. Duolingo: because we need new things to make our routine now that a major part of it is ripped off and you have no idea what to do with all that time and all those thoughts. because your idle mind is only curating crime-thriller non-fiction for some reason. learn a new language so half your thoughts will be busy translating the intrusive self-harming thoughts into new languages and you will not have the time for implementation. 

6. Leave reality: if that would give your overheated CPU some time to cool down. watch your comfort shows, make cheese Maggi, and plate it like you're in the Masterchef kitchen. Bonus points if you keep chopsticks with it to click a picture and then eat it normally with the fork. 

P.S.: DO NOT KEEP ALARMS FOR A COUNTDOWN. IT DOES NOT HELP YOUR ANXIETY.